so today is my sister's 24th b'day, glad for her, but unfortunately i wanted to go Battle of the Sexes, but her friends planning a surprise party for her so of course i have to cut it out of my agenda, sister comes first yah

y are we mostly the weak species, yea i kno there are some women out there that just tough and some out there that pretend to be, and i fall into the latter...so when i cain handle the pressure, u know wha i do, i channel the energy somewhere else, and temporarily it feels better, but it makes the situation worse, cuz to channel that energy i get spiteful...never been this way actualy til i found someone who can be so calm in a situation which is eating me inside out, so i direct all anger towards that person and get them to show emotion, and since that's what i wanted, i feel better cause i'm there thinking well at least they can see how i feel now, but then in the end that's not the solution...gosh i wish i wasn't so weak cuz then i feel worse for hurting them :S

aaahh, rain falling so nice, the sky is overcast an' dark, nice for cuddling in bed and reading a good book, beats doing what i was planning for the day, i.e. going to the beach, taking a swim and relaxing ...yaw i'm gonna go do that now