u, i ain blog in long boy..just haven't been feeling the urge to go on the computer for weeks, so i kno wunna miss muh :) but doan fear, i'm here

first wk of uwi was ok so far, but now i know it really starts cause labs and tutorials starting this week ( :( ) joy...i can't wait til i'm really settled in though, books and stuff, but atleast i know where most of the places are...

on another note, why in God's holy name will 1 of my x's who has become an ok buddy of mine (note i never said close, but still ok the same) will call me out of the blue to tell me about a dream which involved me and ask y we finished in the first place, cause he cain remember, when lo n' behold that was bout 4 yrs ago...all i could think was wtf, thing had me on pause, but i nicely told him, that was a while ago tho and i think the convo should end here, cause honestly i felt it was stupid to go through something that happened so long ago and mostly i felt awkward...1. cuz i doan kno y he'd bring up something like that, esp. when he knows n' talks to the bf (yea i got a huge matter about respect) and 2. honestly i couldn't remember the reason i gave him for breakin it up...embarassed to admit it but yea at that age i used to lie to get out of a relationship in which i lost feelings and attraction for the person, hey maybe that makes me sweet since i didn't want to really hurt the person's feelings..all that much....the most classic lines i used were 1. i'm really trying to focus on my school work & 2. i would like to hold off of relationships for now (tho at 1 time it was true cause i really got tired of them)

hey i'm not that bad am i?? i know u guys did stuff like that at times in ur life..right?? :S