i actually feel livelier and happier than i have in a while, not that i was really miserable or had stuff on my mind for the past weeks (or less) but i believe i wasn't thoroughly contented. I had a convo yesterday that made me smile and realise alot, well actually it's been a series of conversations. Anyhow, yesterday i realised that i was special and not in "that" sense of the word, i mean special to someone. I knew it before doan get me wrong but it brought new light to how i felt.
As u kno, biggestjoe gine way shortly and i wasn't feeling anything but positive about it until a few days ago when some friends of mine threw their opinion on me, of course we had a slight argument cause i was the only person objecting to their comments: such as..'break up, see other ppl, doan mek sense torturing yourself'. All i could ask them was if they were mad, but i realised you can't speak of what u don't know of, plus it was their opinion and i have mine (& yes he agreed with me :D). Plus i had to wonder what the person meant by "torturing yourself", if they meant emotionally, or sexually cause it would be sad if the only thing ppl think of now is that sex is the determinin factor in a relationship. Anyhow, it hasn't swayed me
But y do ppl immediately assume they have to break up with someone cause they're leaving temporarily, it obviously couldn't be that serious.

Another thing that has me feeling good about myself is the knowing that someone is appreciating you, and not just the "i appreciate you alot"..it's the taking time to express what u really appreciate.