so i was encouraged today to make some change to my life or not it won't get better and i took that advice, not anything drastic or major or apparently it was but i thought it would help. I can't really do anything home wise but i could try with other things.

So today i swallowed my pride and openly admitted to what stays in my mind, and what causes strife either directly or indirectly and ironically, a quarrel was started about that, imagine that. But i figured that cause things weren't going good recently and for most of the reasons i knew why, i thought that if anything were to change i'd start with those: things i have hald back and tried to ignore but knew that deep down they were the cause of petty arguments and shit cause they'd come out some how or another, and i was looking to prevent those from happening over and over again for once, but i was accused of coming down on that person. Honestly right now i just feel powerless cause i knew i had no wrong intentions but i feel as tho the fight has left me and i doan care what happens.

At the moment i want to be away from everything cause as i speak my mother is getting on about something which is of no great importance...i doan recall feeling i've been doing anything right by anyone..ah well that's life