Goodness, I haven't written in blogger for so long I'm surprised the mods didn't delete this account. Been thinking for a while how to ease back onto this page especially since some ppl told me they still view it (thanks for the support). However, I've found it easier to blog in msn live spaces for the past few months (for those interested in taking a peek: http://chupaflor.spaces.live.com/).

That's where my thoughts are poured into recently, but since I'm here already I can add that for the summer I've taken up intro to psychology. Far cry from my degree but I've always had an interest in that field and I think I have a knack for analysing ppl, listening and helping while trying not to be biased or judgemental. I respect that there are all kinds of flavours in the pot, but when ppl actions affect me negatively that's when I will tell it as it is. Some ppl like myself are also there for the grades, some have to do it and others are trying to find themselves. On a whole the class is already very interesting, especially since one person who's reputation precedes her is in it, already talking about ppl can change so I'm looking to see if she has. But sadly some ppl's lives are a stone throw away from reality and they don't even realise what they are doing, while just making other ppl's lives miserable. Yea I've had a personal touch by such a person, but c'est la vie.

Anyhoo, later in the summer I shall be getting some money in my hands though it's a job I've come to dislike for the simple reason that it's monotonous. In addition, I'm seriously lacking in motivation. There are some things I wanted to do at the start of summer and haven't gotten around to them (hopefully as yet). Reeally need to get out of my post-study mood.

Well til I have other things to write about..

That time again to blog, and as usual it has to be something major cause nothing big happens in my life. Today they were remembering 50 yrs ago when Hurricane Janet hit Bim but I had my own destruction going on one after the next.

My mother's 50th birthday anniversary is coming up soon enough and she's planning a huge event to go down, which required me to get my visa renewed cause it expired this May. So i went to de embassy today and if anyone dealt with one of those officers recently enough they'd know what i had to deal with, feel every body want to run way to America and hence treats them as is....really really felt like asking him a few questions of my own, like are you an idiot? Man was actually trying to catch me offguard, asking why i want to go America after I told him the plan actually didnt include America. Anyways I had to hold back my tongue cause i really needed it for my mother's sake anyways, but everytime he asked me something stupid I'd look at her lol, I guess it looked bad but wha.

Leffin now, bout to drop her back to work and we were talking bout going to her insurance office to collect something, ironically a man pulled out right infront of us at the intersection opposite the Library and bam!!! Nothing serious but when I saw who he was I was in shock...man had one foot, his left foot at that. I felt bad immediately cause tho I knew he was at fault, I'm thinking shoot, his insurance will go up and he probably paying medical bills or something already :S. Then the actually horror was waiting 45 minutes for a policeman to show, take report and leff and we were directly infront a police station at that. The funny part was that one passed us on a motorcycle and said he will send someone to deal with it and 20 mins later two passed in a car and never even glanced at us.

Alright home now bout 7 something, napping and got woken up by my sister who's telling me my friend just called to say the girl that got stabbed today was actually a friend of ours in primary school. My goodness! Thing is today as I was hearing the story being told and heard the girl was only 20 I said to myself I hope i dont know her, she being my age. Shoot. She left after we finished primary school and I havent seen her since but she was in all of my classes for the entire 11 years so my heart sank, especially since she would cross my mind every now and then, Id wonder what she looks like now, sain so. Rest in Peace Marisa.

Now I know I should end with that note but Im telling the story as it went today and tonite. While I'm still in disbelief I remembered hey i didnt have the licence with me today so have to produce that to the station in 24hrs. Went looking for it where i know it will be and cant find it, immediately I start freaking out cause I know it ain no where else but i ended up searching straight for an hour or more, ended up having to ask my mother if she saw it which I did not want to do from the beginning cawdy. Say she ain see nuttin so I went to look for it again in the initial place, turned out i didnt inspect good enough :s.

Hope tomorrow goes well...

First job ever, exactly in the field i want to go into and I really enjoy it, dont think it can get any better than this...well it can but im definitely satisfied.

Lab work is easy but its so much to do. From day one, infact within the hour i had knowledge of what was going on and how to use the equipment and of course i had to use them. One thing i dont like is the collecting of brew and water samples every single hour and it aint easy cause the lab off of the brew house and packaging area so it is nuff so and so walking. When i done this job for the summer i gine be fit and my arms gine lose this xmas chub cause carrying 6 to 9 bottles of drink every hour, every day tiring.Im also the only student there, well for the week cause apparently another one is coming next week which i was told is not usual...I like being the only one there :( hehe. On the other hand, its few ppl who work in the lab at the moment cause some ppl off, however ppl always passing through, but all of them are safe to talk to so I'm comfortable there. Today there was nothing to do from 10 am cause some machinery stopped working and it would've took hours to change it so they stopped the bottling process, and i was bored, which is weird cause you'd think i'd be happy with nothing to do but to me its easier sitting, analysing drinks instead of trying to find something to do lol. However most of the day was spent walking around with another lab tech who wanted to show me around and introduce me to ppl, and also set ppl on my case so they'd get off of hers.

Other news: I could very well be getting another job after i finish at Banks for the summer and this time, part time, which means I'll be able to work while at uwi if it isnt too much to do this semester.

This week is definitely an excellent week for me, not only started a kool job but at the end of the week I can look forward to something else even more enjoyable...celebrating another anniversary with my baby :)

Working girl

Ecstatic, relieved, anxious...main feelings for the weekend. But who can blame me seeing as its my first job ever. Had basically given up seeing as the three other places werent promising. Got the inside scoop that someone else got the position at PHD, then a fella of the family who owns Mount Gay told me they only hire ppl from b4 and BNSI only takes ppl sent through service commission. So i thought i was screwed for the entire summer, no money and nothing to do but watch Smallville reruns pun a day, then Friday daddy called while i was at the hairdresser telling me someone from Banks called moi but i figured it was just another rejection notice seeing as i had gotten a letter from PHD that same day. So me rush home, called the woman, got no answer but she called back just after 4 and asked if i was still interested, said hell yea then she told me i got the job (in short). I was fussy, then i got nervous cause i had two days to prepare myself. Went in town Satday cause dresscose is strictly long pants and enclosing shoes, which sorta sucks but hey cant complain cause i want and need the job. But shoot, if i knew i was gonna get a job i coulda jump this year, now i got to find something to do cropover day cause most ppl i know will be out on the road doing the worst ever.

Pun a different note now, coulda keep my money Friday. Went Baje even though sain was drilling holes in my head and honestly i just ain feeling "fety" this year. Cawdy they brought out the live music and the place got half empty. If it wasnt for one person I woulda been out of there by 2, but he had muh keys :(. I dont know if there will be another time, maybe wetfete will see me.

Anyways got to get ready for tomorrow.

It's nearly a week since the funeral and i had to blog about it but never got the chance. I guess you're wondering why i would want to talk about a funeral, but the poem written for Noel was too beautiful not to be shared.

"God saw that you were getting tired, and a cure was not to be.
So He put His arms around you and He whispered, "Come to me."
With tearful eyes we watched you suffer and slowly fade away.
Although we loved you dearly, we could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands to rest.
God broke our hearts to preve to us, He only takes the best."

It's my first post for the year and unfortunately it's a sad one.

My cousin Noel passed away lastnight due to complications breathing. He had sickle cell anaemia and really no one expected him to live this long, but he died at the age of 25. From the time i was small my mother told me about his condition and that no one lives beyond their teen years, but he did, and although half his life was spent in the hospital getting blood tranfusions etc. i never believed he'd be gone some day. I thought that if he made it this far, he'd live his life like nothing was wrong with him.

He was my favourite cousin from small but the last time i saw him was 3 years ago when i made the trip to minnesota, seeing as all of my mothers side of the family moved up there. Since I got back home, we talked regularly on the net, even when he was in the hospital he sent msges via his cell phone, but recently I didnt see him online much. I never forget the time, months ago i was away from my computer and he msged me saying "i miss y'all" but he wasnt there when i returned, i sent an email to him but he didnt reply either. My sister told me that she thinks he knew his time was coming cause he talked to her about telling our grandmother to do a grandchild swap so he could come to barbados.

Even though i hardly saw him I'm going to miss him like crazy, although it doesnt feel so real right now. But i know he isnt suffering anymore, so that part makes me happy.

Noel, I love you and rest in peace.

been just so busy since i got back haven't had time to do anything much with myself, including puttin away the clothes i brought back, not like i know where i'll put them anyway, so they are remaining in the bags until i get the energy.

Anyway, had to get to school early o'clock to sort out classes since i was not able to register early and it was stress beyond stress..got home with a headache out of this world. Which reminds me, i even came home sunday with a headache, i don't think i am for this climate, honestly, i really do prefer the cold. Anyway, registering was stress because of the new banner system and sorting classes into sections and finding out which were available and all sort of shite, stupse. But i got through by afternoon and i think i was still fortunate because i heard it took a good many ppl about the whole week to register.I hope catching up won't be that difficult either, since i have to get some notes, but i believe i will get through. Apparently though, i got an A with a distinction in chemistry so i know the tutor is looking for me to excel in his classes, loss i hope i won't disappoint him, cause i know at times i get so lackadaisical and maybe i pick back up but hardly i don't until exams. Sad i know.

Anyway, the trip back home was rough.It was not only hard leaving Hadley up there, but also his family cause we all got attached. Heard they miss me alot, i feel like sweetbread. Couldn't help but cry when i was hugging his aunt goodbye, not to mention him. Cried some more while waiting at the gate. It was just hard to leave man. But we've talked everynight since Sunday and i'm trying, without much work to keep busy because there is so much to do. Added to that, i agreed to dance for NIFCA just to keep myself fit and occupy myself somemore. Well that is it from me for now, going and hit the sack cause i have a made up class at 8 tomorrow. I hope i make it cause it hard enough getting school for 9 am classes.