so anything can get much worse?? actually it can but shite...i hey wid minor headaches for this entire week thanking God since he holding back the big ones and ups come one now...and since i cain take my usual migraine tablets cause they have in aspirin, i got to suck it up and bear de headache and all other probs that come with it..

........i need a hug :(

de week was so far good after de dilemma, but things doan be totally good for me usually since monday i woke up with a sore throat and within a matter of hours had a fever and the whole works, sore muscles, skin etc. So u know i was home and am home from then. My "mother-in-law" said i'm a broken bottle which is true to some extent since i tend to catch whaever in the air. That real true cause i wasn't around anyone atoll who had this. ah well...i guess deep down i was praying for something to save me from that Physics test. :) "Lord works in mysterious ways"

Everything better since i went to the doc yesterday, just to get my med. certificate of course, but she gave me some antibiotics and now everything gone except the slight neck pains and the sharp, sharp momentary pains in the head which i hope aren't that serious but they got me sorta scared. so if wunna doan hear from me, or hear bout me so the case may be, i luv all a wunna..smooches

so i was encouraged today to make some change to my life or not it won't get better and i took that advice, not anything drastic or major or apparently it was but i thought it would help. I can't really do anything home wise but i could try with other things.

So today i swallowed my pride and openly admitted to what stays in my mind, and what causes strife either directly or indirectly and ironically, a quarrel was started about that, imagine that. But i figured that cause things weren't going good recently and for most of the reasons i knew why, i thought that if anything were to change i'd start with those: things i have hald back and tried to ignore but knew that deep down they were the cause of petty arguments and shit cause they'd come out some how or another, and i was looking to prevent those from happening over and over again for once, but i was accused of coming down on that person. Honestly right now i just feel powerless cause i knew i had no wrong intentions but i feel as tho the fight has left me and i doan care what happens.

At the moment i want to be away from everything cause as i speak my mother is getting on about something which is of no great importance...i doan recall feeling i've been doing anything right by anyone..ah well that's life

so, wha ya does really do when ur bored or sick of ur life (to some extent maybe) and the downfall of it is that there is only a few things u can change since the most of it is the basis of your life. For example, ppl in the home just annoyin de rass out of ya and ya cain do nuttin bout it besides ignore cause ya cain say what ya really thinking since it gine get worse or ya gine get kick out and ya really have no where else to go. But on the real, i feel the need to leave home as soon as i start to work...

But really, i'm not feeling as happy as i used to be and i don't feel like myself at the moment. In fact i've not felt totally like myself for a long time but i guess i've ignored it and have looked forward to enjoyable times to prevent myself from going into some sort of depression. But i guess that's life, just go to push on and hope that things go back to normal.